This is going to be short and sweet, but I felt the need to write a post to all those who have read my blog so far, and those who will read it in the future.
Thank you, SO much for your response! I am genuinely overwhelmed. I wrote this blog mainly for myself to read back on, but also with the hope that someone would come across it who is walking the same journey as I and it help them realise they aren’t alone; or someone who knows a person walking the same journey as I who wants to be better educated on the reality of stillbirth. I am amazed at how far and wide my blog has travelled. I never in a million years expected to get the response that I have.
I remember laying with Otis in the bereavement suite late one night/early morning after he was born (I think it was about 3am), and I was talking to him about how much he’s going to be missed, how much he’s loved and how I would never let his memory die with him. I PROMISED my little boy that I would do all I could to ensure that his name wasn’t forgotten. I PROMISED him that I would walk to the ends of the Earth to make sure he didn’t die in vain. I PROMISED my precious son that he would have a legacy left on this planet. I am determined to fulfil those promises for him. It’s the least he deserves.
Otis fought so, so hard to make it Earth side. Unbeknownst to us, our little boy was fighting a losing battle from the moment of conception; but he didn’t give up! He has more of a fighting spirit than most living people I know. I REFUSE to believe he made it to 35 weeks of pregnancy, against all odds, for no reason. He graced this Earth for a reason – I believe that 100%. I will make it my life’s mission to find that reason, and honour it for him.
In writing this blog, I’m fulfilling the promises I made for Otis that he would not be forgotten; and that’s why it means so much that people are reading it. I appreciate every single individual that has taken the time to read about Otis, and our journey.
Otis Dominic Anthony Cullen; we miss you, we love you, we will do both eternally.